The Tri-State Area | Daily Prompt: State of Your Year

Write up a mid-year “State of My Year” post.

Anxiety, hesitance, and confusion—the tri-state I am in.

Gradually, I have become vocal about my pending resignation. I guess the more I am able to talk about it, the more I get myself to accept it. Why do I say that? Because, somehow, I find it unbelievable that I would leave the company. For a while back, I really thought I would stay for as long they wanted me. But I have come to realize that that is the wrong idea. I should stay for as long as I want. And I no longer want to stay there.

That is why I have made the steps to get out of there.

I have applied. I must review. While I have confidence in what I know, I must not be proud of the so-called stock knowledge. That is just being foolhardy. I must train and get back into condition. I must be in shape mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually.

Besides this career move, I have begun to work-out and eat less meat. While my family isn’t all out vegetarian because they could still eat beef and chicken though they prefer not to, I’m the last one in the bunch to get into the bandwagon. And while I did not think it was possible, my body experienced what I classified as withdrawals. And getting over that is not a walk in the park. And I am far from being out of the woods!

One more ingredient to this crazed mix is that I am purging myself of the things that could trigger my deadliest sins. The lesser temptations I have at home, the more I could focus. At least, I believe so.

Ergo, with all these happening simultaneously, I feel the terrible toll. Being in this tri-state area could make me feel lost, overwhelmed, and hopeless at once. But that is when I have taken my eyes off my destination. I may be here right now but that does not mean this where I will stay stuck for the rest of my life.

Change may be hard. But it is what is driving me towards my goal. I will get out of here.


14 Comments Add yours

  1. Mara says:

    You sound like me. I really appreciate your realization that “you would stay as long as YOU wanted to stay”. That is a great life changing moment. Good luck!


    1. Mati Serrano says:

      Thank you so much!


  2. Frances D says:

    This year I gave up all meat and fish, caffeine, most dairy, and chocolate. Caffeine was the hardest – I think I slept 18 out of 24 hours the first few days. You are right to leave the company – listen to your gut always. I made my biggest mistakes not listening to mine. Sending good vibes your way.


    1. Mati Serrano says:

      Baby steps for the moment–about the food, I mean. Lessening the sweets and reining in the cravings if I could.
      Thanks for the good vibes!


  3. Surely not bacon too? 🙂


    1. Mati Serrano says:

      The only non-vegetarian foods that we have here are eggs and fish.


  4. Ms. Roberts says:

    I am a semi-vegetarian but I don’t eat poultry. I also don’t drink soda. I haven’t eaten meat for seven years. Once I stopped, I dropped a lot of weight. I just quit cold turkey, no pun intended.


    1. Mati Serrano says:

      Good for you!
      We rarely eat chicken, rarer still is beef. No soda here.
      Besides the healthy lifestyle, I’d like to get rid of the paunch.


      1. Ms. Roberts says:

        Everyone has that! Even I have that. I just stay as active as I can.


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